we're a package deal

me and my girls are a package deal. that's final. my kids come first and foremost. way before any man i may date.
the question came up last night when i was talking to ryan, the guy i am dating. i asked him "does it scare you that i have kids?" he thought about it for a moment and said no. i was very surprised. i would think that it would be the scariest thing in the "dating world" to a guy.
i hear it all the time at work when one guy is asking another guy about their date, "how was your date last night with that new girl?" the one who went on the date will reply, "great, but she has kids."
i wonder why it doesn't scare ryan? for the amount of physcology books that i have read i do know that it could be one of two things. he either has commitment issues and he is not scared by the fact that i have three kids because he doesn't plan to stick around for long. OR he actually isn't scared.
i don't want to analyze the situation til i have fucked it up, like creating some thing is not actually there. but i do want to know. i just find it interesting that he is not in the least amount worried that i come with a packaged pre-made family.
after thinking about all of that i now wonder is it me? am i just so suspcious and leary of men; after all the crap i have dealt with in regards to my ex's, that i can't believe that MAYBE i have met the one? and it has made very analytical?
then i wonder how do you know he's the one? how do you know? good question. because out of all the men i have had relationships with i felt like i was on cloud nine. i felt fantastic. then bam! he's an idiot. i wish you could get a boyfriend at the mall. and if it didn't work you could bring him in with your reciept and return him. haha. i'm sure that men think the same thing about women? wouldnt' that be fantastic?
oh well, i am sure i will find out soon enough. he will either screw up and do something dumb ie: break my trust and all that other great stuff we do to people. or i will have actually met the man of my dreams!