he hasn't called

well, he hasn't called since my last posting. i don't know what to say. i tried to call him the day after he got home, like he asked me too. but there was no answer. then i tried one more time the day after that. then i gave up....i figure if he wants to get ahold of me he will call. he knows my number. but he hasn't called. it has been like 5 days. i don't think i did anything wrong? maybe he did freak out about me having kids. i really liked this guy, life goes on with or without him. but i did really like him.
i don't want to be insecure. you know those girls who freak out after the first date because he didn't call right away? she will freak out and then he will call in the next 2 days. i don't want to be one of those girls.
i guess having my heart ripped out more than once does make me wonder though. does he like me? what is he doing and why hasn't he called? why did he call me his girlfriend and then not call for five days. - and fyi. i think i did post previously to this, that i thought he could be one of those commitment phobia guys? i think i was right.
here's a thought: i didn't get a memo (or any kind of notification) stating i'm his gf until he kept referring to me as his girl friend. maybe i didn't get the memo saying i've been dumped?!
don't get me wrong...i'm not sitting by the phone waiting for his call. but i have to say that when it does ring i am disapointed when i find out it's not him. i hate this feeling even more than i hated the fact that i had a crush on him. i felt out of control then and i feel out of control now. i just can't win! haha
seriously though. it makes me wonder what happened. is it that his phone finally went in to be serviced? and he can't call because my number is in his phone? his phone did suck.
maybe i should just get over it. maybe.... if and when he does call i will just say "you know what ryan? i'm busy right now, i'll call in a week or so."
i feel mad. i feel like i did something wrong. (i'm being one of those insecure girls right now!)
we'll see i guess. i am definately not calling him anymore that's for sure!